Archive for June, 2010

I got the job…

…and I’m a little bit shellshocked.  After everything that we’ve been dealt over the last two years, it really feels like things are turning around.  It’s crazy and awesome and scary and exciting, and I CAN’T WAIT.

This life is going to be so much fun.


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My husband doesn’t know I blog.  And if he knew, he wouldn’t approve.  He thought my blogging about our wedding was inappropriate, and he hated having his picture out there on the internet.  I get it…he’s a private guy.

But sometimes, I need an outlet.  And if this is my outlet, so be it.

Nobody’s life is easy, I know that.  And sometimes, you go through more difficult patches than others.  I’ve been on a good stretch lately.  But it also seems as though just as things started to drift back in the positive direction, I started taking hits again.

The woman I work for refuses to consider giving raises.  When we try to logically approach her about earning more money, her response is always, “Sell more dresses.”  What have we been doing?  Oh, you know,  just selling more dresses.  We’re making her a lot of money, but she insists that she has none to give her employees.  However, there is plenty to install new windows, re-landscape the front of the store, and even sod her yard at home.

Also, I’m being considered for a new job.  A fabulous job.  A job that I really really want and would be awesome at.  So there’s that.

We want to have a baby, and that’s not working out so well so far.  I don’t want to get into details.  It makes me uncomfortable and sad.  I’m not ready to put my disappointment into physical words just yet.

And the hardest part – I’ve given my husband an ultimatum on something.  I hate ultimatums.  I don’t think they’re particularly effective, and they just serve to piss off all parties involved.  But I was backed into a corner, and I could not see any alternative.  Because he’s so private, I can’t give more detail.  But I do feel like I’m being tested, and I don’t know why.

So yes, while life is good, I’ve hit a bit of a rough patch.  I don’t like it, and I’m ready for it to be over.  Yes, this is all very “poor me,” and I apologize for that.  But sometimes, life is like that.  You have those moments, and you get past them, and looking back, you’re amazed at how strong you were.  I can’t wait to look back and see how strong I was in this instance.

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